I have found my purpose.
And I have finally accepted it without embarrassment.
After months of waiting and wondering and arguing what my purpose was, God has finally showed me. I have finally learned to trust what is it that He told me. I spent so much time questioning the idea that God had placed into my head and was worried about what other people might think of me when they asked me “What do you want to be when you grow up?” and my response being
I want to be a mother.
I was so scared to hear the words, “being a mother isn’t easy, and although it is good to be a mom, since I am a mother, you should find another/other goals.” I have now realized that no matter what anyone says to me or tells me, GOD has created this purpose for me. He has told me what my purpose was because I asked. I know that I will come across people in my life who will disagree with the things I say, believe, and do, but I have come to realize that NOBODY can question God. So when somebody questions my goals and purposes in life, all I need to say is “It is God’s will” and that is the end of conversation whether they agree or not.
God has told me my purpose is to be a mother because I believe He believes I will be a great mother. And while I struggle to find satisfaction in things and easily get bored, I believe that being a mother will be the most challenging and satisfying thing I will ever experience. Whether I mother my own children that I birth, or I mother foster children, God has the plan of me being a mother, and I accept that I will be someday.
So to tell you the answer to the title of this blog…
1. Ask God
If you are struggling with what your purpose in your life may be, very simply, ask God. It may not be an immediate epiphany. In fact it took me months to finally figure it out after I finally STOPPED QUESTIONING IT. which takes me to my next point…
2. Whatever you believe it is, it probably is. Don’t question it.
While I believed I should keep questioning the idea, the feeling of wanting to be a mother kept getting stronger and stronger. Like God kept trying to tell me to listen to Him and to stop questioning it. Every time I see a child or baby now, (even ask my boyfriend), I immediately light up without much thought and start talking in high pitch voice as if that is the only way they will notice the girl that is in complete awe over you, and scrunch up my eyes and put a big ‘ole smile on my face. It is rather embarrassing sometimes, but honestly, I can’t help it.
*FUNNY STORY* One time, my boyfriend was in the store finishing up checking out with one of our friends. I walked outside and a little baby girl was in the arms of probably her mother and I immediately scrunched my eyes, put on a huge smile, and waved at the little girl. Then they both went inside and walked past my boyfriend and his friend and then proceeded to come outside to go to the car and I said “awhhhh did you guys see that cute little baby?” and my boyfriend turns to his friend and said “see told you she would say something”.. *rolling eye emoji*
3. DON’T LET SOMEONE TELL YOU DIFFERENTLY.
It is unfortunate that sometimes we do have a lot of people in our lives that try to control how they think your life should be lived and what is best for you when only YOU know what is best for you. While this has been a major struggle for me, I try not to be embarrassed when someone asks me what do I want to be when I grow up, even though I am 18 and going to college this year for nursing, I can’t really say that nursing is “what I want to be when I grow up”. Because my main goal is to be a mother someday. If you want to be a tattoo artist and you believe that is your purpose and dude, don’t let anyone tell you otherwise. If you want to travel the world and go to different countries to help children your whole life and you aren’t interested in ever getting married and having kids, then that’s what you should do.
4. Once you figure it out, do something about it and live it out.
Although I can’t just wake up and be a mother, and obviously can’t have kids right now, I believe going to school for nursing is what my “doing something about it” is all about. So many people in the world get stuck doing things that they hate. It isn’t mentally or physically challenging for them, it isn’t helping them become a better person, it is simply a burden in their lives. And if that’s the case for you, then get rid of it and change it. It is inevitable that one day we will all die. You will die, I will die, we all will. Enjoy your time alive here on Earth, even though I can’t wait to meet Jesus Christ someday, I also can’t wait to continue to spread His word here on Earth so I can bring some of those people with me to Heaven.
LIVE OUT YOUR PURPOSE. LIVE OUT WHAT GOD HAS GIVEN YOU. We have a choice every single day on what we want to do! Everyday we have a choice and that is what’s awesome.
Don’t get stuck in life not living out your purpose. Don’t question it. Trust God. Just do it, and live it out. Set yourself goals. Live this beautiful life to the fullest. Don’t let other people tell you that what you want to do it ridiculous and not ethical. DO WHAT MAKES YOU HAPPY. And know that God is writing each page of the book of your life, make it worth reading.
God Bless you beautiful people.